This March 2021: An Introspective Analysis
We are a quarter done with 2021; can you believe it? For me, March was a heavy month, so I’d like to share my reflections on those crazy events.
First off, it was my friend’s baptism anniversary. I felt ill that day and couldn’t attend her party, but I thought I had never been invited to a baptism “birthday” and was ecstatic about it.
I encourage you all to find out when you were baptize and make a celebration each year to remember that wonderful day.
Think about it; being baptized might be a one-time thing, but it is a life-changing situation. Since that day, you have been part of God’s family, and the Holy Spirit dwells in you. Your original sin has been forgiven: that is something grand worthy of celebration and remembrance each year!!
Spiritual Direction
The following week of March, I meet with a priest after ignoring that call for almost a year. I cannot fully explain the impact that conversation had on my soul.
I went in, unsure what I needed to say, but soon the priest offered spiritual direction. That encounter reassured me that God’s plan is perfect, and I need to trust him at all times!
I talk more about this beautiful experience here. In the meantime, pray that you may meet a pious spiritual director.
St. Joseph’s Feast Day
A few posts ago, I talked about the consecration to Jesus through St Joseph. Well, I completed my consecration of March 19th, St. Joseph’s feast day!
My soul continued to grow in peace and love like never before. That day, my parish had a special gathering to which my friend and I attended as a starter to our night of celebration!
It was a wonderful day! And I highly encourage you all to do the consecration. St Joseph, our spiritual father, wants to guide you to God!
The turmoil
Ugh. I wished I could say it was all smooth sailing from thereon. I mean, I sure thought God finally swaddled me with his perfect love, and nothing could keep me from it.
But I was soon brutally knocked into reality. You see, harsh thoughts invaded my mind. They only grew more robust, and I didn’t understand why. I prayed they would go away, but they would only intensify.
The Holy Spirit then helped me realize that I was going through it all because he wished for me to be made completely clean. For that to happen, I needed to dig deep into my soul and get rid of all the messiness I had harvested all these years.
For the first time, I did a deep examination of consciousness. I talk about that in the previous post, and I also share the guide I used to prepare for the sacrament of reconciliation.
It was not easy because that required me to talk to people I thought would be better off left in the past. But God kept persisting until I finally reached out to apologize.
The conversation went unexpected in the most magnificent way possible. I knew God was behind it all at that moment.
Seeking Reconciliation
Like I mentioned before, I prayed to be made known of all the ways I’d hurt God so I could confess them once and for all to be made new through the sacrament of reconciliation.
It’s scary to ask for that because it soon makes you see what a wretch you’ve been. It’s hard not to question how God could love me after all the ways I’d hurt him. Yet, that’s who he is: Love itself.
Holy Week
March took up most of Lent this 2021 year. I do not doubt that God knew this would be the perfect time to grant me a change of heart. With his help, I was able to face many of my fears, resist temptations, mend relationships I’d damaged, learn to love others, learn to love myself, but most importantly, I learned to trust God above all.
I see now that my blessings outnumber my sorrows and sins in both quantity and quality. And I know that Jesus Christ loves me. There is nothing that will satisfy my heart more than him.
I know I will have temptations again, but I am no longer scared. God is with me. He will help me get through it all.
I am not afraid to fall because, God willing, I will quickly pick up my cross and run to the father.
I’d love to hear how God worked through your life this lent! Feel free to share below or email me 🙂